Meet Dr Rosemary McCallum, metaphysician, author, speaker, and wise woman. I’ve just enjoyed a few months in her consulting room talking about one of my 'dark little secrets’, and the red-lips-kiss on her cheek is the imprint of my kiss of thanks! (via my blurry photographic unskills…)
Here’s the ‘backstory’:
Over the last few years I’ve achieved quite a lot. I can literally say that I am living my dreams because it was always a dream of mine to have a close-knit, loving family and be a published author, especially one who is popularising universal laws. Tick, tick, tick!
But I’ve often felt frustrated because it seemed to me that many of my goals were taking forever to be realised. Being a ‘mastery’ author, I often felt embarrassed about this, as if I was somehow failing. I’d compare myself with others and find myself wanting.
As I applied myself to understanding this dynamic, I came to understand that I was resoundingly successful in the areas of my highest values and still in process in the other areas, and that was theoretically okay (though not really because I wanted to be on top of all of it!). I came to understand that we are never ‘off track’ in our lives because every experience is part of the tapestry of our unfolding, and that was theoretically acceptable (though not really because I wanted to be on my preferred track all of the time!).
So when people made comments like, ‘Why don’t you use ‘The Mastery Club’ stuff to achieve your goals?’ I felt offended. What do you think I’m doing? I’d think indignantly. (And secretly I felt embarrassed or ashamed because they were ‘right’; I was clearly failing…)
However when I gave my presentation on the Be Who You Wanna Be Youth Summit on Thursday, I noticed that I was saying all the theory and really believing it!!! And when someone asked me, on Friday, ‘Do you ever wonder why things are taking so long to happen?’ I answered with 100% honesty, ‘I used to but now I know that everything is 100% perfectly on track and unfolding in perfect order and timing, and it always has been.'
I realised that I’m on a long time-frame because I’m birthing a big project. Things haven’t happened as fast as I thought they ‘should’ but, if I’m completely honest, I wouldn’t have been ready for big things before now anyway. I was prioritising being an available mother – now my kids are out in the world doing their own thing and I’m literally free to take off. Previously I knew my books were good and I had lots of offer but I still wasn’t massively confident. I was allowing the fact that it hadn’t all happened yet to undermine me. Now, as my work is being validated over and over again by all sorts of people from all sorts of backgrounds, I’m feeling way more confident and the larger time-frame and perspective is enabling me to see that it was all always on track, I just wasn’t seeing enough of the picture.
I’m relaxing and recognising that I’ve just been in process and that was where I was and this is where I am now and it’s all perfect.
So what does all of this have to do with a kiss for Rosemary? Because, sweetheart that she is, she has ‘held the space’ for me over the last few months as I talked through the places where I felt stuck until I was able to bring ‘all of me’ to this place of recognition of perfection, rather than just my intellect. Hence my (tongue in cheek) declaration when I arrived in her consulting room yesterday: ‘I’m cured!'
And really, there are lots more kisses to award – for Bruce Conrad-Williams, for Tanya Bewicke, for Tim Marlowe, for Dr Demartini, for Rowan Burn – all the people over the last few years who have tried to get me to see that it’s all perfect just as it is. Thanks, guys!
And thanks to me, for hanging in there and teaching what I most needed to learn over and over and over until the penny dropped and I learnt it.